In Which I loose My Temper Just a Bit
13 March 2003-11:04 a.m.
A warning right now, This is reactionary and angry. But other people are being that way so I feel I can too.
There's a mess at T&G. I'm on the board, we're geting a lot of flack for something I think was relatively minor. I wasn't even at the meeting and yet have the disticnt feeling of having hate spewed at me. And the WORST thing is the hate is coming from someone I admired and respected and thought of as a friend. This man has taken a postion in this mess that I don't happen to agree with, but that's his opinion. But I saw him last night and boy was there anger there. Has he asked me what I think? Has he even asked if I was there? No Becasue I'm on the board, am I just lumped into the catagory of evil? Apparently. I value my freindship with this couple and I hate the fact that my friendship is being put into jeporady because of a man that I had a nodding aquaintence with! A prfessional, yes I know him, he's done T&G stuff kind of relationship. Damn that I may loose something I care about becasue of that! I can't write anything to these people yet, it would be angry and I will not do that. Of course this same man jumped on the girl who called for peace, and said that if we couldnt' make things better than we should at least try not to make them worse and YET he's continuing to send out inflamatory email. And I'm SHOCKED becasue I expected more from him. And I'm hurt because he's insulted me through insulting the board a couple of times now. I know that I haven't done as much stuff as the director in question, I have NEVER thought that I was better than him. I'm now on a board that has been accused of some sort of conspiarcy against this man. For that I would have to have a strong opinion abuot him and to tell the honest truth, I don't care one way or another about this man. I am friends with people who care very strongly about him, but I don't. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that this man would affect my life as much as he has in the past three days. As a theatre memeber I recognize all he has done but personally, if I never saw him again it would not make a huge impact on my life. So the very fact that I have anger and hate thrown in my direction for having some deep-seated need to "Get John" pisses me off and hurts! The only thing I feel about this is that with the information the board had, which is John cast himself in a major role in his show without prior board aproval, which is against a bylaw. the board did what it should. It upheld the bylaw. I think this is important because why have a rule if you ignore it. Want to know what was so horrible? Here you go, this started this whole mess: ""Because of the time constraints before the opening of THE ROVER, the board of directors, with some reservations, authorizes John to both direct and act in that production."
yep, then we asked that since he doesn't have an AD if he would please get someone to come in and just watch a runthrough to check sightlines. This was a calculated and grevious assult on a director, and an attempt to sabatoge a play by the board?!
It came to light that he had, earlier sent an email telling the presifent what was going on. I don't even pretend to know what all was said, but for some reason our president thuoght it was a minor role, said he would bring it before the board, and he did. Granted he did at the next meeting, which was monday. And when it became apparent that the role was larger than thought the board acted on the information it had.
This whole thing has blown up. I think there's a lot of blame to go all around, but the only people I think are totally blameless are the board memebers who tried to do what they thoguht was best for the theatre. I ask anyone who is angry with us, to please tell us what you would have done differently. And I didn't even get a chance to affect the resolution at all, I wasn't there. Several memebers weren't ther and I resent being made to feel like shit by people who haven't even bothered to find out how I feel. I look around and I see grown-ups, people I consider adults (i don't consider myself one) acting like middle school children and it saddens me. So except for here, I choose to remain silent. If asked for what I think I'd tell them, but I'm not going to type out an angry email and send it to the list. Enough of them have this URL. Some of them may read it. If you made it this far, know that I dont want to fight. I mearly want the show to go on.